I’ve been struggling with my weight for a long time— actually since the birth of my first child 11 years ago. In recent years my struggles have become more transparent due to my writings here and my proclamations to “shed” all the excess weight now or never. Last year I lost 32 (ish) pounds and went from 225 to 195.
I was estatic…but due to over confidence, my complaining about working out in the cold I have crept back up to close to 200 pounds. Needless to say I was distraught, so I decided to start (and finish) one of my biggest nemesis, Insanity. I started about 5 weeks ago and every night I have been getting in front of my television and doing all of those complicated moves. Some nights I have literally waited until midnight to do the videoes but still I got them done.
So, I should of lost weight…right? Ummm no..Instead I gained two pounds. I attribute that to gaining muscle with all of the body weight exercises but the question remains why I am not shedding this weight.. To be honest, it’s because I can’t get this eating 100% down. I get tired of eating so many vegetables and baked chicken so I snack when I have the opportunity to.. which usually means something sweet. My clothes are not tighter and are looser in certain outfits but my weight has not changed.
I am starting to get discouraged because every time I get on that scale I feel like throwing it out the window. So what should I do? I honestly don’t know. I do not want to start another “challenge” and I do not want to do a “Fad diet”…the only thing left is to change my habits with eating. So to help keep me accountable, I am going to use my YouTube Channel to document my journey..be prepared for videoes of me talking about EVERYTHING dealing with weight loss. There will be days I won’t get it exactly right and then there will be victories.. Pray for me ya’ll! I can’t give up..I’ve come to far.